I want to move to Colorado (but not be cold). I want to knit sweaters. I want to work at a library, and not worry about healthcare, and job security. I want to make cool things and sell them online. I definitely want to eat less meat.
And I want to have a good birthday.
I want to keep being as happy as I've been in the past few months. It's been nice not being depressed and anxiety-ridden. more people should try it.

I'm almost done with to of the sockies for michelle. only they aren't a pair. hopefully there will be pairs for both of them soon.
It's getting dark before mark is home, now, so I'm going to go to the park by myself, instead of taking a walk with him later. I can't find any of my old headphones, because our closet does not have a light, and all outlets are very far away from it. And I think our only flashlight is actually stored in it somewhere. So I'm probably going to borrow Mark's nice expensive headphones. off we go!

I don't have to move to Canada now. That's a relief. I really didn't feel like buying a warmer coat.
In all seriousness, though, and as much as I doubt my ability to properly research and understand things, I am really relieved right now, and looking forward to what next year brings.
I hate talking about politics, especially where it involves me saying what I believe and why, because I know someone has always heard something more or different than I. I know how easy it would be to arbitrarily choose someone, and then read certain websites, etc. that only let me hear the good about the one I chose, and the bad about all the others. I know that has happened to an extent, but the important thing is that I was reading, and that I did choose, and then I voted, to the best of my ability.

Yesterday was our first day of work. It was actually really fun and exciting, and it went really well. My feet still hurt from standing for so long, but I was expecting that.

I finally got my name changed officially today! i'm still waiting for my new SS card, until i can change my drivers license, passport, get a joint bank account... ugh. i have my work cut out for me.

today we went to michael's and bought stuff to make an autumn wreath. we also priced christmas trees, and ornaments! being a 'family' is fun. we never even thought about getting a tree the past few years, even though I was living in a big house. Now that I'm in a tiny apartment, I'mm really excited about having a proper christmas.

I'm not the sort to go overboard with kitschy cutsey dustcatcher decorations, but i want to have a little christmas tree, at least our first christmas. I was fine with not having one at home growing up so many years, and i thought it was pretty neat that my mom made a christmas mural when we were really little and couldn't get one. (which I think I might inherit?) but this year, I really want a tree.

trying to find a job: not fun.
i want the job at the museum, i think.
i want a full time job so i can get good insurance.
i have an interview at michael's tonight.
i don't know much about these things, getting jobs, and what not, but i don't feel like it's going well. i want to look through a catalogue, pick what i want, be told yes or no promptly, and then move on to my next best. none of this wait-a-week-and-call-back stuff, them never calling if they don't need me, me finding better and better jobs to apply for, changing my mind about what i want to do, not applying for hte best things first. beuh. this sucks. i just want a job! full time! making alot of money! and (good) insurance!
sitting at home makes me want to be a stay at home mom, and just have babies, and take them on walks, and sew things, and sell them on etsy, but i don't want to have babies without insurance, and i can't get insurance without a (full-time) (long-term) job , and part of me just sort of wishes it weren't all up to me. getting pregnant, getting a job, you name it. ugh.

if i could, i would break into flower, if i could, i'd no longer be bad,
this day is filling up my room, is coming through my door,
oh, I have not seen this day before

I'm working on mark's sweater. it's all done but the weaving in of ends, and the neck and cuffs. i thought it would take me some five minutes to weave in all the ends. hardly. i might never get this thing done. but if looks GORGEOUS.
note to self: be more wary of fair isle next time.

i'm married!